Category: Personal

You know, I haven’t been home in a few days, so I’ve done a lot of thinking. I have been doing a ton of talking with different people in the past couple days and there are some significant things that are happening. I don’t know, I guess most of these are just observations. not sure though. like this..

Why is it that the friends that you were really good friends with in school, even outside of school, but during school.. are now the friends who really don’t call you anymore or just don’t ask you to hang out and stuff? Not sure. I was thinking about that. It’s kind of sad really. Some of my friends are just giving up? Why is that?

Speaking of giving up. I’m in kind of a weird mood. My stomach is hurting. I’m tired. I’ve been up since 5:30 AM, so it’s like to the point where I am just “.. uh?.. what am I doing with my life?..” that kind of thing.

Shay

ps. I kinda wonder why this journal is weird. a lot of questions, very open-ended. i dunno?

WHEW! A break in the action. These past few days have been amazing so let me tell you kids about them. I also wanted to apologize for those returning cam watchers who were sad that I didn’t post an earlier journal. Sorry kids.. but read on..

Ok, so we all know that my last journal was all about graduation. Yeah, so graduation is fun and all, but I think I would be safe to say that it’s not like the “coolest thing in the world” like everyone was talking. It’s just, I don’t know, traditional. That’s all. But we did our ceremony, and two of my friends and I did our song, and it was good. But that wasn’t the best part. When we were walking out of the ceremony my mom came and met me in the parking lot and told me to wait around for a bit. So I did until finally my dad and another friend of mine came. They gave me a box to open and inside was a Volkswagen T-Shirt. Then there was a smaller box that contained a key chain. I really didn’t understand at that point until my friend standing there told me to try the shirt on. When I lifted the shirt from the bottom of the box there was a set of JETTA KEYS! I GOT A FREAKIN’ JETTA FOR GRADUATION!!! Isn’t that the coolest?!?! So, that was amazing. Seriously, I love that car, it’s what I’ve always wanted. It’s a 98, Jetta GL. Oh man, it’s a manual, and it’s baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. I love it. So that night we hung out for a long time at this party, then we went to a friends house and hung out and in the end it was a good night!

But that was Thursday. Saturday was my 18th BDAY! My friends stole me on Friday night so we could celebrate my birthday! They got me like 18 different gifts, which were all very rockin’! Tons of things from orange juice to a worship leader magazine. It was rad. Then they took me to dinner at this place that we are going to more often now called EZ Take Out. It’s a fun place, hamburger joint. But one of the best gifts was the one you are seeing the picture at the right, no not the car, but the sticker in the window. If you can’t see that it says “shaycam.com!” isn’t that rad? I love it, thanks everyone!

So anyways, just when I thought the surprises would stop, they didn’t. Monday (the 17th) my friend Zach asked me if I wanted to go hang out and stuff, so I did and we saw Episode II for the first time and it was good. Well, in the middle of that our friends call and are like “hey do you guys want to come over and swim.” And we’re like “sure, sounds good, be there in a bit.” So we go eat at McDonald’s and then go to our house’s and get our board shorts and head over. But when we got there, I walked in, went down the hall of my friends house, and SSSSSUUUPPPRRIIIIISSSEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! They threw me a surprise party! It was awesome! We had so much fun! I have awesome friends don’t I? Ok, that’s a lot of stuff. Talk to you kids later!

Shay

Ok, this is a note from everybody at Shaycam.com (hehe) who would like to congratulate the graduates from Desert Christian High School class of 2002! Congratulations and I hope you continue to be the awesome group that you are. I love you guys! God Bless.

So, today is the day. We’ve been through the ceremony rehearsal, and have done our sound checks. We’re ready. Even though we’re not doing anything more than walking across a stage and getting a piece of paper in a nice booklet, we’re ready. Why is it so important, you know, to graduate? Well, I think it’s because it marks a stage in our lives that we will never go back to. It marks the beginning of a new life, one that can make or break us. I know I sounded insensitive when I said that all we were doing was walking across a stage. Cause it is a lot more than that. Once again, it’s memories. It’s honorable. We have weird hats on, and weird gowns on, but it’s what is. “TRADITION!” as Tevya would say in “Fiddler on the Roof.” I love it. It’s crazy, but I love it.

Tonight we will spend numerous hours hanging out and enjoying each other’s company. We will dance. We will talk. We will be who we are. And you know what, that’s what we do best! Tomorrow, nothing will be that different. We will have new memories of each other. We’ll be able to say that June 13th, 2002 was a day when, yes, we graduated, but we were able to be together one last time. At school I have this ongoing joke about standing up in front of the senior class and saying, “.. guys, we don’t have many more times like these..” and everyone gets made and tells me to sit down. But you know what, we don’t. There aren’t any more times of growing up together like we have been for the last few years. But it’s ok. I’ll cry about it for a little bit and then we will go our separate ways. That’s just how it is.

Well, to my seniors, this is it. Tonight will be good.
And for everyone just tuning in, well, I will let you know how everything goes on a later journal! But I knew I had to write something on the day I graduate.

oh, and have you seen me on Shaycam.com? :)

Shay

It all comes down to this. Another chance for us to make a memory. A memory of friends, and a memory for a lifetime. Never again will we be just some “high school kids.” From now on my memories of high school will be re-lived by saying, “Yeah, back when I was in high school…” It’s sad. It really is. There are people that I know that I will never see again. Why is that? It’s because we’re different. We’re not all the same, we have dreams, dreams for our lives, dreams for our families lives. What will we become? I’m not sure. But I know that we are the next thing. We are what is coming up in the world. We are the people who will be there for you. We are, and that’s it.

I felt like doing a little writing today. Not sure, I’m not so much in a sad mood, but I was just thinking of telling everyone that it’s over for me. My high school days are done. Tomorrow is my graduation. And that’s all.

Yesterday I went to an “Open Mic Night” at our Starbucks here in town. It was interesting to say the least. There is talent on this planet, and some people share that talent in a number of different ways. Me, well, I shared my talent through a song I wrote on the guitar.

uh?.. I woke up too late today, I missed the morning, I hate that. But I was really tired. Anyways, I am listening to Further Seems Forever right now. It was when Chris Carraba from Dashboard Confessional was in the band. I used to not like them, but I think I am getting a better feel for them. Ok.. time for me to take on what’s left of my day. Thanks for coming all time and reading about my life.. you’re great!

Shay

I don’t know. I was just sitting here thinking about things and I just thought maybe I’d write something kind of interesting this evening.

I was thinking about the word “imagine.” It’s kind of an interesting word in the fact that I can imagine anything I want about it. Or I can imagine anything I want about anything. Have you ever imagined something? Of course you have, but what was it like when you saw it for real? Did you ever imagine what it would be like to go on your first plane ride or get your first kiss? Maybe what it was like to drive a car for the first time or go to high school for the first day? Did it turn out like you’d hoped? Do you think your life has turned out like you hoped it would?

Because if it hasn’t, then you are missing something. Missing something important. Things happen every day to people, and we don’t’ know why. Innocent people are dieing and we don’t know why. Some of us don’t even care. It’s not because we’re insensitive (most of us), but just the fact that we weren’t there, or we didn’t hear about it or even just the plain and simple fact that it is happening every day so now we are just numb to it. Why are we doing this? What’s happening on this earth? Personally, I think that things are great! Yeah, sucky stuff happens, but time changes these things. People change these things.

I know I’m not a professional or whatever, but I really think that you should dig deeper in to this life. God has so much in store for you. All you have to do is ask Him to show you what that might be. Maybe you won’t find out right away, that’s ok, just pray hard, and stay focused. Be obedient. I have given my life to Jesus Christ. He is my rock. My hard place. I will continue to love his every command.

I don’t my thoughts are jumbled, I don’t even think any of this made sense. But you know what, it’s my life, my webpage, and another thing, I didn’t make you come here and read this. You did it on your own :)! But thanks, I need the support! Bye

email me sometime, i like to hear from you kids.

Shay